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LOUISE TERESA LEFEVRE
FEMALE ( SHE/HER )
WAND alligator juniper, unicorn hair, 9"
PATRONUS calico cat
pet paul, a ferret
- PETTING ZOO
- HERBALISM & HORTICULTURE
- WIZARD BAKING
tw: eating disorder
you watch your mother dance with wide, sprakling eyes. she looks beautiful. clumsily, you mimic her movements. one hand raised to your side, the other gripping onto the barre, as you get up on your toes.
carefully, you let go, raise your other hand as well. "mommy, look!" you call out, happy, excited. a smile from ear to ear stretching on your face.
but then you lose balance, tumble to the ground. your eyes fill with tears and your mother kneels down beside you.
"oh, louise," she says, smoothing a warm, soft hand over your red hair. "you know what the fun thing about falling is?" you pout and shake your head. she smiles. "you get to get up and try all over again."
and she takes your hands, pulls you back up on your feet and you do just that; you try again.
you don't look like the other girls in your ballet class. they're small, lithe. weightless and graceful.
you? clumsy. tall. you don't pick things up as easily. weak ankles, your teacher had said. staring in the mirror, you frown. pinch the skin on your hip between thumb and forefinger. chubby. ugly.
first, you stop eating dessert. then breakfast. then, you stop eating altogether. your mother makes you lunch, you throw it out when you leave the house.
you head feels light, your energy is low, but at least you're pretty. at least you look like them.
the first time you show any indication of magic, it's small. only for a moment. the leaves float above your palms and you smile, look away to call your mother.
but the second you lift your gaze, you feel the leaves drop down into your hands. the moment over as quickly as it began.
"how did you do, louise?" your classmate asks, holding up her own test–a perfect score. your hand covers the top corner of your own test.
"oh, fine," you say, feeling the mark burning through your skin. you failed, again. so that night you stay up to study, again.
"ofcourse," you say when a girl asks if she can copy your notes. you hand them to her without a second thought.
"sure," you say when a boy asks if he can borrow your quill, because he forgot his. you give it to him with a small smile, don't ask for it when you never get it back.
"why not," you say when your project group asks if you want to write the introduction, even though you would very much prefer the conclusion.
"yeah," you reply to his "this okay?" as he slides his hand under your skirt, fingers skimming your thigh. your eyes glued to the ceiling, because it's not really okay. but he called you pretty, bought you dinner. so it seems only fair.
you hear them talking about you, whispers in the hallways. snickers behind hands as you walk by, thinking you don't notice, but you do.
louise louise louise, says yes to everyone, low standards, desperate for attention, how sad
you just choose to block them out.
it happens in a blur–father tells you about his new job, mother sits next to him, smiling. they tell you that you're moving to england. "when?" you ask. "at the end of the month," they say.
the next thing you know, you're in a strange house, in a strange country, getting ready to go to a strange school where you know nobody.
and where nobody knows you.
+ self-consciousness personified
+ french, went to beauxbatons, transferred to hogwarts this september
+ not a very talented witch, she ties but struggles with a lot of her classes and definitely needs tutoring
+ skips meals, needs to be reminded to eat or she won't ( probably still won't unless she's forced )
+ a people pleaser, has trouble saying no to anyone, puts others before herself, avoids conflict
+ tall and skinny, wears oversized clothes to hide her weight and hunches her shoulders to seem shorter
portrayed by yuyuka nekota from HIRUNAKA NO RYUUSEI
posted Jun 28 2018, 01:52 PM report